When the Right Decision Feels so Bad...

Going through some saved posts and found this:

"Out of no where, I had an amazing opportunity. An opportunity to be a part of families being created through the amazing process of adoption. I had thought that this was THE job. It seemed so perfect, a great fit. So that had to be God opening a door right"

So I obviously began writing this when I felt I had to say no to the job. I was so confused by the opportunity being presented only for me to have to say no. Well in case anyone reading this does not already know... Some of the circumstances that played into me saying no to the job changed. The Branch Director at Bethany Christian Services of the Gulf Coast called me back and said - hey how about this... and I was speechless. Ok, God, I get it. I had never before really sought Him on a decision like this. I always did what wanted to do. I wanted this job, even though it did scare me a little - all new things scare me for some reason. But it was really not enough to just want it anymore because I had to think about Chris AND The Boy. The Boy requires a little more thought than Chris in some ways. So by saying no the first time, it gave it gave the branch director and my family a chance to seek what was best. All this situated around hours - 40 hours a week was just not something I could figure out because I didn't want to use after school care. We had made it this long without daycare or long term babysitting and I just didn't want to start. I was offered 30 hours which was not only GREAT for me but actually turned out great for the office as they were able to bring on the administrative assistance permanently instead of as a temp.

I have been with Bethany Christian Services of the Gulf Coast since January 11. Although it has been a big adjustment for our family, I am L.O.V.I.N.G. IT!!!!!! I am the adoptions specialist so I get to do home studies and work very closely with adoptive families as they maneuver through the adoption process. To date I have completed my first home study and have 3 others in process, 1 of which to be completely in the next couple weeks. I am learning so much and getting to use my experience of going through the adoption process as well.

I guess with surgeries for Chris and change in job and life in general, I have been distracted from blogging. Not sure if that will change or not. We will see. It is obvious from reading older posts that I am very opinionated so I am sure I have plenty to talk about, just a matter of having time to think through it and type it out... We shall see...